Dieting is not for the weak

Well, I made a promise to myself when I started blogging that I was going to say what I feel, no regrets. As you may have read a previous post of mine, I am sticking true to that statement.

I had previously started other blogs to chronicle my weight loss journey but decided to scrap those and just put my journey on this blog. I didn’t want to embarrass myself but to heck with it! I will. Maybe that’s the motivation I need to lose this stubborn weight!

Anyway, I could talk about when I began my weight loss journey but I’m so sick of saying the same thing over and over again that I’m not going to do that. Needless to say, I was at my lowest weight in December 2008 and now I am back at my highest in January 2009.

I did what 95% of Americans did and started my “diet/healthy lifestyle” in early January, weighing in at a whopping 151 lbs. Yowza. Over the past 3 weeks, I’ve managed to lose 4 lbs. My goal was to be 130 for Anisah’s wedding in March but, yeah, I can’t see that happening unless I become anorexic in which case I might faint while walking down the aisle and steal Anisah’s spotlight. So I’m just looking to keep losing weight until then. If I can be in the 130’s, that would be fantastic.

I had been doing Weight Watchers since May 2007 but I quit in December because the program simply wasn’t working for me anymore. I wasn’t putting all my effort into it. Basically, I was paying to gain weight.

Since then, I’ve been doing it on my own, using which is a fabulous site. You plug in all your goals, how much weight you want to lose, how much you plan to exercise, yadda yadda yadda and it gives you a target calorie range, target carb range, target fat range, and target protein range. It worked super for me when I was up at the dorms in 2007. I managed to lose about 10 lbs doing it and it’s been working for me so far.

I have setbacks. There are times when I just feel I’m never going to maintain control over my eating habits. Heck, my mom, who had lost 80 lbs doing Weight Watchers still feels like she is out-of-control when she eats. So it’s a learning process every single day. It’s an uphill battle every single day. But I’m determined to get to the top of the mountain.

I’m doing good with my exercise. Sort of. I’ve slacked off for the past four days. The thing with me is that if I don’t do it first thing in the morning, I can make 75,000 excuses on why I can’t exercise (Numero Uno is usually that I don’t want to). Honestly, I hate exercising. I mean, you sweat, your heart rate accelerates, and you become short of breath. Where else but in exercise is that normal? Anywhere else, you’d be in the ER getting checked out! So, for me, it’s not fun but I have to do it. So I do. And when I’m finished, yeah, I feel great! I am Superwoman. But it’s that point of getting there and exerting all that effort that makes it hard.

My eating habits, blegh. This is the area I need to work on the most. More water, less soda (plus, my complexion sucks right now). More fruits/veggies, less candy/chocolate.

So I need to set some weekly/monthly goals. And since it’s almost February, I’ll make these February goals.

Goals for February:
– Lose at least 5 lbs
– Run for 2 minutes on the treadmill (6.0)
– Eat at least 3 servings of fruits/veggies a day
– Get down to only 1 (or none!) soda a day

Goals for Week of Jan. 23rd – Jan. 29th
– Drink 2 bottles of water a day
– Get up to running a minute on the treadmill
– Establish a consistent 30-minute 3-day-a-week strength-training plan

Ah, the joys of weight loss. Why couldn’t I have the metabolism my brother has? He eats and eats and eats and eats and has never had to worry about his weight. I mean, he came over to watch the games on Sunday and had FIVE pieces of pizza! That’s over 1,200 calories! But that’s my lot in life and it’s just going to get worse if I don’t try to gain control over it right now.

Wish me luck! I hope to get my posts out every Friday so we’ll see.


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